Ije’s Diary.
- By Brendalishuss
I stumbled on this piece and i couldn't let go until i finished it. it is quite inspiring to see someone write soo amazingly that you itch for me, i hope you would love it like i do, more posts to come by..
Enjoy.
Based on a true life fiction.
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Episode 1.
My name is Ije. And I am happy..
The 21st, my boyfriend’s birthday, I have decided to give myself to him in ways he never had me, I thought it would be nice to do something I hadn’t done before, so I sought advice from Jessica, my best friend/flatmate, the wild one. We went to get a few toys…Some rather disturbing and some..uhmm..Interesting. I don’t even know how this one works..
I have been very conserved in the past 6months of my relationship with Kenny… He has never seen this side of me, I’m not even sure I have the side I speak of. All I could hope for was that he loved it and I didn’t look stupid.
Jessica and I casually sat with refreshments as we watched one of the porn dvd’s we got from the store, intended for ‘higher education’ we were there throwing baked nuts into our mouth and watching these girls just wild out on penis. I have joints that make bending like that near impossible. I am not made of rubber. This one just defied all laws of gravity and she aint een know it. I don’t understand. But I’m going to try to please my baby at the risk of getting muscle cramps, “I am ready” I thought to myself. 30minutes into our educational adventure I found myself sitting on the ground and Jessica on the couch, stroking my hair. to porn. It felt good and I was getting sleepy so I neither moved nor complained. Probably perceiving that as a go ahead, her fingers slowly crawled into my blouse. I made no movements still, until her hand casually went down my nipple and I hit it off with a laugh, “i’m going to sleep Jess” I packed up my laptop and headed to my room to sleep. I jumped in my bed and opened it back up, i was going to touch myself to sleep but just as I got out the bullet from my side drawer the door flung open “let’s do it together” “that’s super weird Jess”, “No, it’s hot, move” next thing she was under my duvet and we were getting off to the same video. I slept off wondering how weird what just happened would sound to an outside ear.
I have been very conserved in the past 6months of my relationship with Kenny… He has never seen this side of me, I’m not even sure I have the side I speak of. All I could hope for was that he loved it and I didn’t look stupid.
Jessica and I casually sat with refreshments as we watched one of the porn dvd’s we got from the store, intended for ‘higher education’ we were there throwing baked nuts into our mouth and watching these girls just wild out on penis. I have joints that make bending like that near impossible. I am not made of rubber. This one just defied all laws of gravity and she aint een know it. I don’t understand. But I’m going to try to please my baby at the risk of getting muscle cramps, “I am ready” I thought to myself. 30minutes into our educational adventure I found myself sitting on the ground and Jessica on the couch, stroking my hair. to porn. It felt good and I was getting sleepy so I neither moved nor complained. Probably perceiving that as a go ahead, her fingers slowly crawled into my blouse. I made no movements still, until her hand casually went down my nipple and I hit it off with a laugh, “i’m going to sleep Jess” I packed up my laptop and headed to my room to sleep. I jumped in my bed and opened it back up, i was going to touch myself to sleep but just as I got out the bullet from my side drawer the door flung open “let’s do it together” “that’s super weird Jess”, “No, it’s hot, move” next thing she was under my duvet and we were getting off to the same video. I slept off wondering how weird what just happened would sound to an outside ear.
*Morning*
Kenny’s call woke me up. Impromptu business trip, he had to be at portharcourt for two days. I was devastated and he heard it in my voice, he promised to come back on his birthday, he promised to be back with me. “I dropped the keys off for you Jey, stay till I’m back, don’t leave, just 2days”.. “Okay baby, just be safe.” I miss him, I mean he had been here all along and everything was okay, I hadn’t seen him in 3days and it was okay, but for the fact that I know he would be this far away from me. I’m just going to wear his oversized shirts and thighlock his pillows till he gets back..
Kenny’s call woke me up. Impromptu business trip, he had to be at portharcourt for two days. I was devastated and he heard it in my voice, he promised to come back on his birthday, he promised to be back with me. “I dropped the keys off for you Jey, stay till I’m back, don’t leave, just 2days”.. “Okay baby, just be safe.” I miss him, I mean he had been here all along and everything was okay, I hadn’t seen him in 3days and it was okay, but for the fact that I know he would be this far away from me. I’m just going to wear his oversized shirts and thighlock his pillows till he gets back..
***
I got the scented candles..blind folds.. Beads.. Gel.. Vibrators.. Restrainers.. Everything. I got everything.. Put them all in my bag of sin. And headed over to his house before Jessica woke up..
I got to the house and asked Ahmed the guard for the keys, only for him to tell me oga madam was inside already.. I was confused. I thought I was oga madam. Ahmed calls me oga madam.. But I am outside. “Ahmed, oga dey inside?” understand my confusion. “No na oga madam dey inside”. I smiled and said okay like I knew what was happening, as I walked towards the door.. I paused right in front of it. Was I ready to confront another woman? Why would Kenny do this? Why would he embarrass me like this? If he wasn’t interested anymore, why not just dump me like a normal human being. Why send me into a house with his oga madam. I changed my mind. I made a turn, i was going back to my house. I pulled out my phone to compose what would go down in history books as the longest bitter-ex-text ever… But then I paused to think about it. Would I spend the rest of my life wondering. What if? I turned back around and walked through the door with all that was left of my confidence. Urgh.. She was in the kitchen. Whatever that bitch was preparing, the aroma had me salivating. So mad at Kenny! And at her! And my salivary glands! I walked towards the kitchen and a fresh wave of sadness slapped me across the face. I was going to cry. She walked out of the kitchen and I was in shock. It wasn’t a half cast size 8 buffy the body barbie with great tits. It was Kenny’s mother. His mother! I just wanted to jump on her, throwing hugs and kisses at her, but. No need to weird her out. Never been so happy to see another human being. “Are you okay dear?” she asked, “Yes ma, good evening ma. Kenny forgot to mention you would get in today”. “Well he didn’t know I was coming in today, don’t let me keep you love, go drop your things and come have something to eat” she wasn’t staying the night, she just got back into the country and she had to go to her husband. I came back down and dinner was served. She said something about being happy the whole family would be together on Saturday. Something about….Well the thing is. I wasn’t listening. My food. It was so delicious. I just smiled when she smiled and laughed when she did. I wasn’t interested. Dun care Dun tell. I was neck level deep into my meal. Her phone rang, She went to take the phone call came back in and said she had to leave and told me to take care of myself and her son… I feigned sadness, hugged and kissed her goodbye…. As soon as she left the room.. Homegirl dug into her plate. Because… Well. H.I.P. for tha hip for tha hippopo.
I got the scented candles..blind folds.. Beads.. Gel.. Vibrators.. Restrainers.. Everything. I got everything.. Put them all in my bag of sin. And headed over to his house before Jessica woke up..
I got to the house and asked Ahmed the guard for the keys, only for him to tell me oga madam was inside already.. I was confused. I thought I was oga madam. Ahmed calls me oga madam.. But I am outside. “Ahmed, oga dey inside?” understand my confusion. “No na oga madam dey inside”. I smiled and said okay like I knew what was happening, as I walked towards the door.. I paused right in front of it. Was I ready to confront another woman? Why would Kenny do this? Why would he embarrass me like this? If he wasn’t interested anymore, why not just dump me like a normal human being. Why send me into a house with his oga madam. I changed my mind. I made a turn, i was going back to my house. I pulled out my phone to compose what would go down in history books as the longest bitter-ex-text ever… But then I paused to think about it. Would I spend the rest of my life wondering. What if? I turned back around and walked through the door with all that was left of my confidence. Urgh.. She was in the kitchen. Whatever that bitch was preparing, the aroma had me salivating. So mad at Kenny! And at her! And my salivary glands! I walked towards the kitchen and a fresh wave of sadness slapped me across the face. I was going to cry. She walked out of the kitchen and I was in shock. It wasn’t a half cast size 8 buffy the body barbie with great tits. It was Kenny’s mother. His mother! I just wanted to jump on her, throwing hugs and kisses at her, but. No need to weird her out. Never been so happy to see another human being. “Are you okay dear?” she asked, “Yes ma, good evening ma. Kenny forgot to mention you would get in today”. “Well he didn’t know I was coming in today, don’t let me keep you love, go drop your things and come have something to eat” she wasn’t staying the night, she just got back into the country and she had to go to her husband. I came back down and dinner was served. She said something about being happy the whole family would be together on Saturday. Something about….Well the thing is. I wasn’t listening. My food. It was so delicious. I just smiled when she smiled and laughed when she did. I wasn’t interested. Dun care Dun tell. I was neck level deep into my meal. Her phone rang, She went to take the phone call came back in and said she had to leave and told me to take care of myself and her son… I feigned sadness, hugged and kissed her goodbye…. As soon as she left the room.. Homegirl dug into her plate. Because… Well. H.I.P. for tha hip for tha hippopo.
I had way too much to eat, slept off on the couch in the sitting room, Tv remote in hand. I woke up at about 3am and went up to the bedroom. I saw 5missed calls and a message from kenny.. “Don’t go anywhere”.. I smiled to my half asleep self..
*Morning*
10am.
I slept till 10am. I needed to get things done. Kay told me not to go anywhere but I needed to go order for his cake, check with the caterer, pick up the lingerie I ordered for and get my hair done. He probably would have found out someway or another so I decided to call him to explain I needed to be out today.
10am.
I slept till 10am. I needed to get things done. Kay told me not to go anywhere but I needed to go order for his cake, check with the caterer, pick up the lingerie I ordered for and get my hair done. He probably would have found out someway or another so I decided to call him to explain I needed to be out today.
***
That was out of the way. It was a very long day, Friday night and I couldn’t go out because I was told not to, might as well turn up on my own, rolled two blunts, took a half empty bottle of American honey from his bar and indulged myself. In no time, I was drunk and high and alone. I knew I wasn’t going anywhere so I decided to explore my limits. Everything on tv was funny. I was horny. The stairs looked weird. I didn’t know where to place my feet. So many problems. I managed to go up to the room, Jay Seans ‘ride it’ was playing in my head, so why not?. I turned on the sound system, put it on blast and started swaying around the room. And then I thought to myself, imagine Kay right there, on his chair, watching you. Entertain him, I slowly slipped out of my clothes, eyes fixed on the chair as I put on a show for my absent boyfriend, I should make a video.. But I don’t know where my phone is. My boyfriend is probably on his way back home, I thought to myself,. My hands all over my body, as i danced towards the bag I picked up from the store today and pulled out my all black 4piece lingerie. I slipped into it with the sex appeal of 7 goddesses combined. I don’t know what got over me, might as well go all the way. I let my hair down and had another sip of my drink. Danced towards my bag of sin and brought it to the bedside.. If he comes tonight I’ll be ready, if he comes in the morning, I’ll be ready… Another sip of my drink… I was clearly drunk, why wasn’t I stopping? I was way more into my dance now. Back up on the wall…Framing my body as I moved along. My uncalculated moves surprisingly accurate, I twirled and tried to support my landing with my left leg but I was distracted and I fell or scratch that. I was high so I fell. Although I was truly distracted, Someone was standing at the door.. He had been there for lord knows how long.. Watching me.. He seemed relaxed like he had been there for a while. I flipped my hair to see him clearly.. My Kenny, the man after my own heart. I tried to lift myself off the floor but I couldn’t so I just sat there laughing. He was saying something, I didn’t hear, I didn’t care, he helped me up and I launched myself at him, he just stood there as I danced around him, I took his hands and placed them on my belly.. Grinding my hips against him, I turned around and began unbuttoning his shirt, he tried to stop me.. But I wasn’t having it..I continued.. He pulled off my grip and was trying to tell me something I think he was too tired, I don’t know.. I probably looked stupid, so I took my hands off him, but my gaze not leaving his, not even to flutter my lashes. He saw the need in my eyes, as I did in his. I took two steps backwards, away from him. Almost falling as I did so. He grabbed me for my support. His hands, I missed his hands. He flicked the hair away from my face with his not so gentle fingers and I couldn’t hold the stare anymore, I broke it. Next things his mouth was strong on mine. 5days away from him felt like forever, he stopped to look at me, his breath intense, his grip on my neck, strong. I saw his need… I felt it… He looked too vulnerable. I broke from his hold and slowly led him to the bed, he followed as one under a spell as he took his shirt off. No words uttered. But he understood my every need, and judging from the fact that he wasn’t unsnapping anything. He was going to have me with everything I had on intact. His perfectly chiselled body on top of mine, kissing me like it was his first time.. Tongue down to my neck… My bosom… Never breaking contact… Replacing tongue with fingers as he moved down to my navel…and lower… My inner thighs. And then slowly, back up.. He had a new thing for my neck, his mouth doing wonders to me. I was confused, my body was feeling so many different things, it couldn’t process it all. It didn’t know how to respond. Kenny had never taken his time to make me feel this way, was it cause I was way more comfortable…it felt so good, I climaxed all over his face and he came back up to kiss my neck as he slowly eased himself into me.. Never felt this good. I should drink more often. He held me tighter with every thrust…loving my walls, again and again… Till he was ready to give me all. I wanted it all. He moved to pull out and I pinned him back down with my thighs. He didn’t fight it. I wanted all of him… He gave it all to me… And the rest was a blur.
That was out of the way. It was a very long day, Friday night and I couldn’t go out because I was told not to, might as well turn up on my own, rolled two blunts, took a half empty bottle of American honey from his bar and indulged myself. In no time, I was drunk and high and alone. I knew I wasn’t going anywhere so I decided to explore my limits. Everything on tv was funny. I was horny. The stairs looked weird. I didn’t know where to place my feet. So many problems. I managed to go up to the room, Jay Seans ‘ride it’ was playing in my head, so why not?. I turned on the sound system, put it on blast and started swaying around the room. And then I thought to myself, imagine Kay right there, on his chair, watching you. Entertain him, I slowly slipped out of my clothes, eyes fixed on the chair as I put on a show for my absent boyfriend, I should make a video.. But I don’t know where my phone is. My boyfriend is probably on his way back home, I thought to myself,. My hands all over my body, as i danced towards the bag I picked up from the store today and pulled out my all black 4piece lingerie. I slipped into it with the sex appeal of 7 goddesses combined. I don’t know what got over me, might as well go all the way. I let my hair down and had another sip of my drink. Danced towards my bag of sin and brought it to the bedside.. If he comes tonight I’ll be ready, if he comes in the morning, I’ll be ready… Another sip of my drink… I was clearly drunk, why wasn’t I stopping? I was way more into my dance now. Back up on the wall…Framing my body as I moved along. My uncalculated moves surprisingly accurate, I twirled and tried to support my landing with my left leg but I was distracted and I fell or scratch that. I was high so I fell. Although I was truly distracted, Someone was standing at the door.. He had been there for lord knows how long.. Watching me.. He seemed relaxed like he had been there for a while. I flipped my hair to see him clearly.. My Kenny, the man after my own heart. I tried to lift myself off the floor but I couldn’t so I just sat there laughing. He was saying something, I didn’t hear, I didn’t care, he helped me up and I launched myself at him, he just stood there as I danced around him, I took his hands and placed them on my belly.. Grinding my hips against him, I turned around and began unbuttoning his shirt, he tried to stop me.. But I wasn’t having it..I continued.. He pulled off my grip and was trying to tell me something I think he was too tired, I don’t know.. I probably looked stupid, so I took my hands off him, but my gaze not leaving his, not even to flutter my lashes. He saw the need in my eyes, as I did in his. I took two steps backwards, away from him. Almost falling as I did so. He grabbed me for my support. His hands, I missed his hands. He flicked the hair away from my face with his not so gentle fingers and I couldn’t hold the stare anymore, I broke it. Next things his mouth was strong on mine. 5days away from him felt like forever, he stopped to look at me, his breath intense, his grip on my neck, strong. I saw his need… I felt it… He looked too vulnerable. I broke from his hold and slowly led him to the bed, he followed as one under a spell as he took his shirt off. No words uttered. But he understood my every need, and judging from the fact that he wasn’t unsnapping anything. He was going to have me with everything I had on intact. His perfectly chiselled body on top of mine, kissing me like it was his first time.. Tongue down to my neck… My bosom… Never breaking contact… Replacing tongue with fingers as he moved down to my navel…and lower… My inner thighs. And then slowly, back up.. He had a new thing for my neck, his mouth doing wonders to me. I was confused, my body was feeling so many different things, it couldn’t process it all. It didn’t know how to respond. Kenny had never taken his time to make me feel this way, was it cause I was way more comfortable…it felt so good, I climaxed all over his face and he came back up to kiss my neck as he slowly eased himself into me.. Never felt this good. I should drink more often. He held me tighter with every thrust…loving my walls, again and again… Till he was ready to give me all. I wanted it all. He moved to pull out and I pinned him back down with my thighs. He didn’t fight it. I wanted all of him… He gave it all to me… And the rest was a blur.
****
*Birthday morning*
Felt like someone dropped Thor’s hammer on my head, and I cannot lift it off, because well, I’m not Thor. I felt like poo. I raised myself to sit and Kenny was just there on his chair. Staring at me.. “Its 11:40 Ije, everyone is downstairs.. And Ije this room is a mess.” Shit. The uptight Kenny is back, I celebrated too soon, what happened to the Kenny I made love to earlier. “Ease up sir.. Its your birthday, and I really want to go again”.. “Go where again? We have a party to prepare for, Ije where did you even drop your phone, must have called a million times” urgh. Buzz kill. “I’ll freshen up and go look for it”.. He then hands me ibuprofen pills and water. “My family is here, I don’t want anyone to see you like this, freshen up and come downstairs”. He said to me as though referring to a child.. All I could say was “happy birthday”. Sometimes I don’t understand this man, one minute he is holding me like he’ll die if I take one step away from him, and the next he treats me like a spoilt child he needs to discipline.
I stood naked before the bathroom mirror, I had a lot of hickeys. They made me want him more. I was going to build up his hunger and make him beg for it.
I did everything in a hurry, they had been here all morning. Still looked good. Short black dress. I went downstairs to meet the family, it was just Kennys mother and his sister, Nike. She was friendly, a little too friendly.. Her hugs hurt, but mostly because of what kenny had done to my body, I smiled to myself as the thought flashed through my mind. Where is Kenny by the way. “Nike, have you seen Kenny”, “the boys are all downstairs” Kenny, his stepfather and his brothers. Urgh. Such gatherings are always awkward for me. It was almost 1pm. I joined them to prepare lunch and Nike went to call the boys as her mother and I set the table. They all came up. Kenny’s twin brother was around. Well they called him Lanre not Taiye but yea, I had no idea he was in the country. He looks really fit and yum, I should introduce him to Jessica maybe that’ll put a stop to the awkwardness of the other night. *shrug*. His stepbrother Leke was here too. He just got back from boarding school. He is way taller than myself now.
*Birthday morning*
Felt like someone dropped Thor’s hammer on my head, and I cannot lift it off, because well, I’m not Thor. I felt like poo. I raised myself to sit and Kenny was just there on his chair. Staring at me.. “Its 11:40 Ije, everyone is downstairs.. And Ije this room is a mess.” Shit. The uptight Kenny is back, I celebrated too soon, what happened to the Kenny I made love to earlier. “Ease up sir.. Its your birthday, and I really want to go again”.. “Go where again? We have a party to prepare for, Ije where did you even drop your phone, must have called a million times” urgh. Buzz kill. “I’ll freshen up and go look for it”.. He then hands me ibuprofen pills and water. “My family is here, I don’t want anyone to see you like this, freshen up and come downstairs”. He said to me as though referring to a child.. All I could say was “happy birthday”. Sometimes I don’t understand this man, one minute he is holding me like he’ll die if I take one step away from him, and the next he treats me like a spoilt child he needs to discipline.
I stood naked before the bathroom mirror, I had a lot of hickeys. They made me want him more. I was going to build up his hunger and make him beg for it.
I did everything in a hurry, they had been here all morning. Still looked good. Short black dress. I went downstairs to meet the family, it was just Kennys mother and his sister, Nike. She was friendly, a little too friendly.. Her hugs hurt, but mostly because of what kenny had done to my body, I smiled to myself as the thought flashed through my mind. Where is Kenny by the way. “Nike, have you seen Kenny”, “the boys are all downstairs” Kenny, his stepfather and his brothers. Urgh. Such gatherings are always awkward for me. It was almost 1pm. I joined them to prepare lunch and Nike went to call the boys as her mother and I set the table. They all came up. Kenny’s twin brother was around. Well they called him Lanre not Taiye but yea, I had no idea he was in the country. He looks really fit and yum, I should introduce him to Jessica maybe that’ll put a stop to the awkwardness of the other night. *shrug*. His stepbrother Leke was here too. He just got back from boarding school. He is way taller than myself now.
***
Lunch was fun, I tried to give a few suggestive glances to Kenny but he was too engrossed in his conversation with his stepfather to notice me, and whenever he managed to look at me, it was too quick a glance. He didn’t even give me enough time to be sexy. I gave up. I ate lost in thoughts as I rubbed round the hickey on my neck. I looked up and Nike was staring at me, so was her brother. They must have noticed me smiling to myself. That was the awkward highlight of lunch time. Lanre smiled and looked away noticing my discomfort and digging back into his food. Nike kept looking at me with an evil grin, like she was trying to make me uncomfortable on purpose. Kenny and his father had touched every topic from football, to politics, to hitler.
We were done eating and his parents had to leave with Leke. A few hugs later they were gone.
***
7hours to Kenny’s party tonight. I havn’t seen my phone all day. So I decided to look for it, 10minutes into the search I found it on the floor at Kenny’s bar. 15missed calls, a lot from Kenny, from Jessica, some unknown number, and the caterer, plus a bunch of texts. First I called the caterer back, she was ready to head to the house with the food. Then I called Jessica, told her about Kay’s brother and how I would hook them up, she wouldn’t miss the party for anything in the world, the phone call wasn’t weird at all, Then I called the other number. It was Lanre, apparently Kenny gave him my number to call when he got here. I apologized and disconnected. I read my messages and they were filled with texts from Kay.
“My brother is on his way to the house, tell ahmed to let him in”.
“he is outside Jey”.
“why aren’t you picking up? He is outside”
“Jey!’
That was his last message. well he deserved to be mad at me I bet he wanted to punch me when he came into the room but I was too attrac…wait.
I immediately ran downstairs to meet Kenny.
He was talking to his brother, I excused him and dragged him into the kitchen.
“What time did you get back?”
“Uhm, 9ish”
“9what?!”
“9:30am. What is the problem Jey, you are being weird”
“9am today?”
“Yes. 9am today. What is wrong with you”
“Nothing, I got tipsy and lost my phone, I’m sorry for not picking your calls, stop being mad at me”
“I’m not mad at you Jey, I stopped being mad the moment I saw you. kiss me”
I flicked my hair to hide my neck as he leaned in to kiss me.
Lunch was fun, I tried to give a few suggestive glances to Kenny but he was too engrossed in his conversation with his stepfather to notice me, and whenever he managed to look at me, it was too quick a glance. He didn’t even give me enough time to be sexy. I gave up. I ate lost in thoughts as I rubbed round the hickey on my neck. I looked up and Nike was staring at me, so was her brother. They must have noticed me smiling to myself. That was the awkward highlight of lunch time. Lanre smiled and looked away noticing my discomfort and digging back into his food. Nike kept looking at me with an evil grin, like she was trying to make me uncomfortable on purpose. Kenny and his father had touched every topic from football, to politics, to hitler.
We were done eating and his parents had to leave with Leke. A few hugs later they were gone.
***
7hours to Kenny’s party tonight. I havn’t seen my phone all day. So I decided to look for it, 10minutes into the search I found it on the floor at Kenny’s bar. 15missed calls, a lot from Kenny, from Jessica, some unknown number, and the caterer, plus a bunch of texts. First I called the caterer back, she was ready to head to the house with the food. Then I called Jessica, told her about Kay’s brother and how I would hook them up, she wouldn’t miss the party for anything in the world, the phone call wasn’t weird at all, Then I called the other number. It was Lanre, apparently Kenny gave him my number to call when he got here. I apologized and disconnected. I read my messages and they were filled with texts from Kay.
“My brother is on his way to the house, tell ahmed to let him in”.
“he is outside Jey”.
“why aren’t you picking up? He is outside”
“Jey!’
That was his last message. well he deserved to be mad at me I bet he wanted to punch me when he came into the room but I was too attrac…wait.
I immediately ran downstairs to meet Kenny.
He was talking to his brother, I excused him and dragged him into the kitchen.
“What time did you get back?”
“Uhm, 9ish”
“9what?!”
“9:30am. What is the problem Jey, you are being weird”
“9am today?”
“Yes. 9am today. What is wrong with you”
“Nothing, I got tipsy and lost my phone, I’m sorry for not picking your calls, stop being mad at me”
“I’m not mad at you Jey, I stopped being mad the moment I saw you. kiss me”
I flicked my hair to hide my neck as he leaned in to kiss me.
***
I slipped into a T shirt and denim shorts. I was ready to go pick his cakes up. I was confused. My hands were shaking, oh what have you done Ije. I cheated on my boyfriend. On his birthday. On his bed. With his twin brother.
Kill me now.
“Jey, Lanre will drive you to get stuff done, Nike and I are going to get Phil and his wife from the airport” Kenny said to me as hurried to get his keys. Not even guaging my reaction. Just perfect. More awkwardness.
I slipped into a T shirt and denim shorts. I was ready to go pick his cakes up. I was confused. My hands were shaking, oh what have you done Ije. I cheated on my boyfriend. On his birthday. On his bed. With his twin brother.
Kill me now.
“Jey, Lanre will drive you to get stuff done, Nike and I are going to get Phil and his wife from the airport” Kenny said to me as hurried to get his keys. Not even guaging my reaction. Just perfect. More awkwardness.
Lanre picked up the car keys, walked towards the door and opened it saying “lead the way”. I rolled my eyes and walked past him, if only Kay knew that this man he had left me in the car with had done unspeakable things to the body that was supposed to be his. I just sat there in silence. And then the idiot started talking.
“It’s rude to roll your eyes at people”
I rolled them again.
“You are not going to say anything to me? I need directions dear”
And then without looking at him I said “You had sex with me. How could have had sex with me”
“Excuse me? WE had sex. Plus you came on to me. Directions.”
“Oh please! I was drunk and vulnerable, you shouldn’t have let me”
He parked the car and started yelling too
“you were not that drunk. Look, I tried, I really did, but you were just too… I’m sorry okay. It has happened. It was a mistake. You’ll have to get over it.
“Get over it? Get over it?? It isn’t a test I flunked, or some money I lost! I gave the entirety of my being to you! My boyfriend’s twin! You don’t get over that! Sir!”
“Okay then, don’t. But you enjoyed it as much as I did. There is no need to pretend. It won’t happen again. I won’t tell a soul. Let it go.”
“Fine”
“Fine, now seat belt, and directions please”
“Straight down, third left”
I tried to hold back the tears, but they trickled down my cheeks anyways.
“Oh God, are you crying?, Ije? please stop. Okay i’m sorry.. I know its messed up. Trust me, I do. But I couldn’t help myself Ije, I promise you I tried, shouldn’t be an excuse, but it’s all i have”
“Turn right after the traffic light”
And then it was an awfully silent ride till we got to the store. We went in together to pick the cakes, dropped them off in the car and as he was about to get in. I turned to him and said
“I need to go to the pharmacy”
“Why? What’s wrong?”
“You came inside me. That’s what”
“Are you going to be this cold to me forever ije?”
“Yes I am, now if you would excuse me”.
He held me by the arm and pulled me towards him
“Lanre! Stop this, we are in public,”
“Apologize to me..” He said breathing hard against my face
“Apologize for what!, Lanre pls let go of me.”
“For taking advantage of me, for being irresistible, for making me sin against my own brother, for weakening me, for making me so helpless, for stopping me from pulling out. Apologize to me because I want more”
I couldn’t say anything, I just stood there staring at him, as tears streamed down my face. Just 2 days ago my biggest problem in life was what to wear and my best friend touching me, and now, everything is just so messed up and complicated.
“I apologize?”
“Are you asking me or telling me ije” he held my neck as though he was going to kiss me
“This is crazy Lanre, your brother has been nothing but good to me, I can’t keep this huge a secret from him. It’ll kill me. I have to tell him”
“No. Let me tell him.”
“We will do it together”
“Fine” and then he let go of me
I turned to walk away as he started to follow me, I gave him a confused look as if to ask where the hell he was going. He smiled and headed back to the car door.
His smile was all I could think about as I walked towards the pharmacy, “what the hell is wrong with you ije, you are in this big a mess and you are thinking about his smile? No one cares if he has beautiful teeth you whore.” I kept thinking to myself. I got the drugs and headed back to the car.
“You are beautiful”
“Don’t talk to me”
He laughed and started the engine.
I was back at Kay’s in no time, Nike was sitted in the living room and so i assumed Kay was back too and so Phil and his wife were somewhere in the house. I had met Phil just once but I had never met his wife, and to be honest. I wasn’t in the mood to play nice and pretend to be excited about anything.
Nike noticed I wasn’t myself and came to ask what the problem was, “I think i’m coming down with something” i said as i held my head, it did genuinely hurt and I did feel sick. She offered to help with everything and told me to go up and rest. I hugged her in appreciation and headed up. I had never been so lost in my life, I made a pool of tears on my pillow, as I slept off on it. Hopefully I would wake up and it all never happened.
“It’s rude to roll your eyes at people”
I rolled them again.
“You are not going to say anything to me? I need directions dear”
And then without looking at him I said “You had sex with me. How could have had sex with me”
“Excuse me? WE had sex. Plus you came on to me. Directions.”
“Oh please! I was drunk and vulnerable, you shouldn’t have let me”
He parked the car and started yelling too
“you were not that drunk. Look, I tried, I really did, but you were just too… I’m sorry okay. It has happened. It was a mistake. You’ll have to get over it.
“Get over it? Get over it?? It isn’t a test I flunked, or some money I lost! I gave the entirety of my being to you! My boyfriend’s twin! You don’t get over that! Sir!”
“Okay then, don’t. But you enjoyed it as much as I did. There is no need to pretend. It won’t happen again. I won’t tell a soul. Let it go.”
“Fine”
“Fine, now seat belt, and directions please”
“Straight down, third left”
I tried to hold back the tears, but they trickled down my cheeks anyways.
“Oh God, are you crying?, Ije? please stop. Okay i’m sorry.. I know its messed up. Trust me, I do. But I couldn’t help myself Ije, I promise you I tried, shouldn’t be an excuse, but it’s all i have”
“Turn right after the traffic light”
And then it was an awfully silent ride till we got to the store. We went in together to pick the cakes, dropped them off in the car and as he was about to get in. I turned to him and said
“I need to go to the pharmacy”
“Why? What’s wrong?”
“You came inside me. That’s what”
“Are you going to be this cold to me forever ije?”
“Yes I am, now if you would excuse me”.
He held me by the arm and pulled me towards him
“Lanre! Stop this, we are in public,”
“Apologize to me..” He said breathing hard against my face
“Apologize for what!, Lanre pls let go of me.”
“For taking advantage of me, for being irresistible, for making me sin against my own brother, for weakening me, for making me so helpless, for stopping me from pulling out. Apologize to me because I want more”
I couldn’t say anything, I just stood there staring at him, as tears streamed down my face. Just 2 days ago my biggest problem in life was what to wear and my best friend touching me, and now, everything is just so messed up and complicated.
“I apologize?”
“Are you asking me or telling me ije” he held my neck as though he was going to kiss me
“This is crazy Lanre, your brother has been nothing but good to me, I can’t keep this huge a secret from him. It’ll kill me. I have to tell him”
“No. Let me tell him.”
“We will do it together”
“Fine” and then he let go of me
I turned to walk away as he started to follow me, I gave him a confused look as if to ask where the hell he was going. He smiled and headed back to the car door.
His smile was all I could think about as I walked towards the pharmacy, “what the hell is wrong with you ije, you are in this big a mess and you are thinking about his smile? No one cares if he has beautiful teeth you whore.” I kept thinking to myself. I got the drugs and headed back to the car.
“You are beautiful”
“Don’t talk to me”
He laughed and started the engine.
I was back at Kay’s in no time, Nike was sitted in the living room and so i assumed Kay was back too and so Phil and his wife were somewhere in the house. I had met Phil just once but I had never met his wife, and to be honest. I wasn’t in the mood to play nice and pretend to be excited about anything.
Nike noticed I wasn’t myself and came to ask what the problem was, “I think i’m coming down with something” i said as i held my head, it did genuinely hurt and I did feel sick. She offered to help with everything and told me to go up and rest. I hugged her in appreciation and headed up. I had never been so lost in my life, I made a pool of tears on my pillow, as I slept off on it. Hopefully I would wake up and it all never happened.
I wish I didn’t have to get up for Kenny’s party.. Two hours late.
(to be continued. stay away from Yoruba boys. lol)

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